The last few weeks have been a roller coaster of emotions.
It's now fairly clear that our match with the mother due with twins has fallen through. (There is still a very slim chance she may place, but it is highly unlikely.)
Right now, we are grieving the loss of these babies. We've dreamed about these two and pictured them in our family. We gave them names and started getting the house ready for them. The kids know about them and have already begun to love them too. But it was not meant to be.
With every adoption, one thing we always pray for is whatever is best for the baby. Even if that means it is not with us. It's such a hard thing to pray for and truly want....because ultimately, in our hearts we want this baby/these babies to come home with us. But in the end, we know God's plan is best. And no matter how hard it is sometimes, we cling on to that truth with everything inside of us.
We are sad about the loss, but we know God loves us and has the perfect little one out there who was always meant to be in our family. He's proven it so many times before - just like what happened with our adoption of B - and we know He will do it again.
|B's little hand...he was always meant to be with us!|
I know that for some reason, we were meant to cross paths with this mother. And who knows why? Maybe it was so that we would always keep her in our prayers. We will probably never know in this life. But He has a reason and purpose for everything, including every difficulty we face.
We will be ok in the end. It's just hard when we're first going through it. So will you please keep these 5 intentions in your prayers?:
Pray for the agency for wisdom and guidance in their counseling.
Pray for our future birthmother for peace, strength, and guidance.
Pray for our future baby for whatever is best for him/her and for his/her health.
Pray for my family for peace and strength and that we trust in God's will.
Pray for the mother of the twins and for her babies for peace, strength, and God's grace.
Your prayers truly matter and have already helped us all more than you know.
I think my favorite part about blogging so far has been the tremendous support and prayer cover we have received from all of you. You are all truly amazing. Thank you. We greatly appreciate your continued prayers for us and all of our intentions, especially during this difficult time.
God bless you, my friends,
Edit (3/30/15): We now have a son! You can read more about his whirlwind adoption here!