I've seen how much I love being a (most-of-the-time) stay-at-home mom, and also how hard it is. I have so much to work on, like being more patient and relaxing and enjoying the moment. It's ok if the laundry piles up, the kids don't behave perfectly, or we eat cereal for lunch every now and then. It's ok to just have fun. No purpose or goal to work towards - just having fun. That's what they'll remember. Not that the counters were always clean and all the toys were always picked up. But all those fun family moments we shared.
I've seen how fast our little ones are growing up. Earlier this year, Buster couldn't even walk. Or say much. J couldn't even talk much last year. Now, they're running and chatting away. There is just so much more they can do from a year ago to today! It's amazing...and a little sad too. Yesterday as we were riding our bikes around the neighborhood, I saw some pre-teen girls sitting in their yard, talking about school. Then, I hear our little J yell out to Jim, "Daddy, faster, faster!" It just made me think of how before too long J will be like those older girls. And she won't want us to do things for her as much anymore, so we really need to stop and take the time to soak in and truly enjoy these moments when they're little.
|...like her wanting us to catch her at the bottom of the slide!|
I've seen what a role model I am for the kids. And obviously Jim too. J and B copy and repeat everything we say and do. The past year has really shown me how this is just as - or maybe more - important than sitting down and teaching them lessons, like the alphabet or math. They learn how to get through difficult situations, how to treat others, and how they should be treated as a person from what they see modeled through our actions. It is such an important job that we have as parents to model the faith and character to our kids so they become healthy, happy, and loving people someday!
|My little helper, copycat, and mini-me|
I've seen how my infertility journey is more like a roller coaster than something I can just "get over". I struggled with it a lot late last year. First, I want to say that I am so grateful for my children and how they came to us through adoption. I would never change the past. They were always meant to be with us, and they're such gifts! It's looking forward that can be difficult. I want to give my kids more siblings and my husband and myself more children. But my body can't/won't give life physically. That's a hard pill to swallow. So I have to keep telling myself to remember how much God has blessed us through my infertility so far. And that His Plan for us has been amazing for us. He hasn't forgotten us, and He has great plans for us. I've learned I just need to tell myself that everyday!
What a big year it's been! I feel like I've grown a lot, but that I still have a long way to go in some areas. I wonder what will my 31st year be like? I pray it's full of more growth, joy, and many blessings.
Cheers to another year!